That is the right one, sir!

But the rest of your post sounds like praying.

You know, I have been to this "I lost, but I lost under the plan, so I am proud losing" thing. No discipline will ever help make money, but understanding what you are doing and why. If you have it, you will never have doubts or welcome losses. I do not know your age, I am 35 years old and I do not want anymore of this "I will keep my discipline, I will follow the rules, and some day... maybe..." stuff.
I want trading money NOW!
Two options.
1. I know how
2. I don't.
Discipline has nothing to do with it, it is just a psychological compensation for losses.